What do you do when it seems like every path in closed to you.?When it seems like there isn’t anyone you can go to? Or when you feel you just aren’t meant to be with people right now? This may be a self loathing question but I really want to know. How did you deal and where did that take you?
Do you ever look around you at everyone and everything and think maybe I’m just not meant to have that. Or maybe it’s never real to begin with. I’m not foolish enough to think there is a happily ever after, but maybe lasting relationships aren’t real ether. I have never seen it. At least not one that you look at then and say yeah they still love each other after all this time. What if the partner I want isn’t out there? What if it’s not real for anyone? Can you go through life thinking you are only meant to be alone and still be happy? I hope so much it’s not true and I’m wrong, I want so much to be shown there is more to it then I see, but I fear I am right.
We lost our minds when we fell in love that night.
When it comes to you and me I have thought about it all. What A life with you, what a true relationship would be like. I wished for it more then I ever have anything.
But it doesn’t matter. I have nothing to offer you that you don’t already have. I have next to nothing going for me, no path, no future I can see. But, I love you. The only thing I can do for you now is let go, and let every moment with you become a memory. A memory of a time I loved you, and you did me.
If you ever look back and think of me I hope you will never have any doubt in your mind how I felt for you. Because I ripped my heart out for you. Make sure my sacrifice is worth it, and be the happiest you can.
This is our last goodbye as lovers. Hello will come again, and when it does we really will be friends. I promise.